The cosmos, the universe, life, reality ... what really is it?? 

I often wonder as an adult what it would be like to see the world through the eyes of a child again. I watch my family expand with wives and girlfriends, friends, children and grandchildren, and I am always a little jealous of the wonder the littlest people see in the world.  The imagination and insight into things long forgotten.  A spiderweb is never just a web, and hole in the ground is anything but just a hole, the insects and grass that are examined with such beauty and wonder, and the things we simply brush off or walk past unnoticed, are sometimes the most fascinating of experiences, the textures and depth of nature and the sweet sound of the birds and buzzing of bees, things we simply do not notice any more.

What would happen if you realised all that was and all that could be are far more than we ever imagined??, Is the world we live in really just what we see and what we are taught, or is there much more. Would we be falling into a whole new way of being, or just falling out of the old one?? 



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Saving Grace is a series that takes us to the depths of self-discovery.  A representation of women who thought they had lost everything and yet found strength in their weaknesses, and the trauma they thought defined them.  


We are never stronger than when we think we are at our weakest. 

Each image has its own defining poem, written by both myself, and my close and amazingly strong and insightful friend Tania. 


We hope they bring you strength in yourself & hope beyond despair 




Last night grief came to visit.
And gently took my hand.
It knew that I was broken.
As we walked upon the sand.

I glanced beyond my shoulder.
And all that I could see.
Was a pretty world of wonder.
Much better without me.

As I embraced the ocean.
Cold upon it's tip.
I wondered, was I ready.
To make this final trip.

The sunrise that embraced me.
Gently warmed my skin.
I realised it's not over.
But time to re-begin.

From grief's grip I loosened.
It's ever tightening hand.
I stood and faced the sunshine.
Then walked back towards the land.
~ Beverley Ashburner 2020


Saving Grace
There’s a horror in her heart
It will not let her go
A girl born unwanted
The reason she will never know
She never felt like she belonged
Always searching for a mother
How could she not love her
She learnt to seek comfort from many others
She was never crazy
Just wanting to be belong
To the woman who gave birth to her
A bond that should be strong
She numbed her hurt with alcohol
But it didn’t soothe her soul
Her mask was a smiling fake
She fell into a deep, dark hole
I understand why she ran
She felt trapped and broken
From a man who forced himself upon her
His name remains unspoken
And one day changed everything
A baby she would love with all her heart
She couldn’t wait to meet her
Her baby would know love from the very start
She’s in her middle age now
The hurt of her Mum is still there
Her baby a grown woman now
Their love for each other beyond compare
There’s a fire in her belly
And a smile upon her face
She knows love from lots of people
And her daughter, her saving grace.
~Tania Mckay 2020


You Don't Know Me

I know you think you know me.
We smile and we have fun.
But you don't ever see me once the day is done.
My bruises are all hidden
From what others want to see
But the sadness will engulf me
the darkness that is me
My sorrow is unspoken
Veiled by a cloke,
My happiness is failing
At times it makes me choke
But in my darkest moments when I think that I am done
I think of something little
And how you point me to the sun.
~Beverley Ashburner 2020
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Have you ever touched the sorrow and danced upon its thread
Have you wondered why the sadness settled in your head

Have you ever felt the fear as you lie there in the night
Wondering if tomorrow will bring some hopeful light

Have you wondered how you happened
upon this endless ledge
Will you plunge into the darkness
Or stay safely on the edge

Do you still hope you will find some light
Within your darkened mind
Do you Still wish for the happiness you wish that you could find

One day I hope a spark of light
Will turn into a glow
And you'll eventually find the path
You'll really want to go

For just before the sunrise
It is the darkest hour
But if you can just hold out for light
You'll find your greatest power.

~ Beverley Ashburner 2020


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Week 3 of Lockdown !
9 images later and todays creativity is finished ????
initially Inspired by Alice in Wonderland and some amazing friends with small businesses, who feel like they are losing control trying to reach for some light to help them to the surface.
Never one to go with just one meaning though, so this also represents our children and the struggles some of us are having with the home schooling, a feeling that we are not quite good enough, we are overwhelmed and drowning
When I started this I had a total nightmare, it just would not look how the vision in my head looked, so after about 5 hours of editing, my pc crashed and I decided to leave it for the day ! The following day, with fresh inspiration and pondering on what went wrong, little Miss was back in the studio for a re shoot - I have discovered I actually enjoy the failures and putting them back together,
and please feel free to add some feedback - how does it make you feel ??
did i make the concept understandable?


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